gah. seems like the pic doesnt work even on a normal computer. hmm. i have to do something about this.
well. today was really bad. one of the worst days ever. why? because i went to the airport to see a friend off. he's going to go to sg to serve in NS and we'll never see him again until he comes back. and he's going to have all his hair shaved off as well. and yah. whatever army does to you. bleah. but thats besides the point. (cos i just recently got to know him and all. but he's a really cool guy) the point is that it just reminded me of the time when i left sg. and like all my friends were at the airport sending me off as well. well. it wasnt that dramatic that day was it. you guys just came and we were all chatting in our various groups and stuff cos there were so many of you and like. i just left like that cos we didnt take note of the time and i had to rush in already, so i left all of you looking at me through those huge glass windows. while i sauntered to the lady at the counter waving like some crazy woman at you guys. gah.
and well. today alot of emotions just flooded me. i felt really sad. cos bryan's (thats the guy - oh! he's cousin is in mg! :D ) family were all crying and i just missed seeing my parents, and i realised how hard it is to let go of your family members.
today was just a great day of realisations. and an eyeopener to many things that God wanted to tell me i guess. like in sermon, he reassured and reaffirmed my being in perth and like. he does have a plan for me. and well. God will work in mighty ways in my life. and He's going to use me for his big plan too. but one thing that keeps coming to my mind - i need to return to him and really follow him by faith and stop doubting him. and keep to his word. i have to do all that and commit my life to him before he can start making my life a wonderful experience and before he can really make full use of me. well. i need to stop procrastinating and start doing something about my life and my walk with him. its not going to be me in my comfort zone and doing what i like, its about what God wants me to do and i want to do whats best for my own spiritual growth. so yeah. i can do this. (:
I can't believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
You lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You
And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire
I stand here before You
In wide opened wonder
Amazed at the glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You
- Reaching for You, Hillsong
a shout of praise.
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